Kids

You know what makes me really sad? That on such a wonderful evening I have homework thats going to take me like 3 or 4 hours to do, which would be ok if I could come home right after school and started working on it but I have cross country practice and then I have to come home and eat and shower, and then do all the little things that my mom wants me to do. Half of the homework I have doesn't even help me, they just make us do it. Don't you think I would learn more if I was able to sit outside and listen as nature talks to me? Or, usually on Wednesdays I babysit kids at church and learn all about what happened to them during the day, what made them sad, happy, frightened, excited? Don't you also think it would help me become a better mother by being able to interact with children while I'm still at a young age? I do get some interaction with children but since I was the baby in the family and I never really had time to babysit, I haven't had as much time as I think I should. I think babysitting those kids is sometimes harder than schoolwork too. I also love those special moments when one of them reaches for your hand, or gives you a hug, sits on your lap and falls asleep, or even just that little smile you see that almost constantly appears upon their face. Especially those moments when they hurt themselves and come to you because they know you can help them and will care for them. Even the fact that they feel safe under your care because they know that you can protect them makes me feel amazing. Don't you think that would help me more than just reading a poem about a mother and her children (which in fact is something I have to read tonight), its actual hands-on, real-life experiences. Just to sit on the swing with the cool breeze and the sun setting in the back-round as you watch the kids run around and play, will change my life more than homework ever has or will.