Recently I've been in the mood to just go and drive. I don't care where to, I just want me in the car driving away from this place. This impulse usually comes at about 9 to 9:30 at night when I'm about half way through my homework and the though that I still have a couple hours left of it. I really just want to sit and sing and listen to the music without anyone around to bother me. It would also give my head a chance to clear and me to forget my worries and cares. I don't care that the gas prices are high, its just something I feel I need to do. Especially when its nice out like tonight and you can have all the windows down and it be a comfortable temperature. I feel like it would also be a great time to talk to God openly and out loud about all thats bothering me. There's just been this longing and nagging inside of me and I really need peace in my heart right now. I feel like my heart is constantly racing and I don't even know whats bothering me. And something inside of me is also telling me a drive could cure whats ailing me. Maybe even if I could just find some place to park the car and sit and watch the sun set. It was amazingly beautiful tonight and I have been caught up in homework for so long that I have missed seeing it in the evening.
Just a drive, that's all I ask, even thought I 99% sure that my wish will not be granted, I shall still look out the dining room window as I sit and do my homework, and wish that every car going down the road was me.
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