No One Understands

I'm falling apart. And I don't know what to do about it. It's as plain as that. I have trouble sleeping, thinking, I'm constantly dizzy, my shaking's gotten worse, and I'm getting tremendous headaches. I feel I should be excited for this swim season, and I got a glimmer of that on Saturday, but it was gone in a flash. I rarely get nervous or scared now because it pulls to much energy from me. I'm stuck in a rut. I'm seeing the worst side of me and it's becoming a constant image instead of a passing glimpse. I don't know how to say how I feel. It's bad.