Love

Two of my favorite songs right now are love songs. About happy endings and true love. I've always wondered if I'm going to live long enough to find that, maybe I'll die tomorrow or God will come again before I have time to find it. Does that mean I should change the way I think and see things, and what if I meet someone who was the person for me, but I don't see it or feel the connection so I just shrug it away? I mean I don't expect to find that person in high school but a lot could happen in two years before I get out. I could get in an accident and be mentally disabled for the rest of my life. It would be God's plan for me, its just hard to think about and understand because I see, feel, and hear love everyday and I feel like I will miss out on something important if I don't find it. And I def. think that this is harder for girls just because of how we are created and that we think about this way more than guys do so we tend to worry about it more. We always want the perfect guy and a best friend for life but there's only one guy out there like that whose meant for you. I'm afraid I won't meet him till I'm too old to have children and I think I'll need a lot of support from someone those years right after college trying to find a job and a home somewhere. By the grace of God I am making it through this horrible year by the skin of my teeth. Though I would feel bad dragging someone into this with me because I barely have time for me. Just something I think about when I hear those songs, something I'll need more patience than I have to comprehend.