Nothing? Anything?

What do you do when you can't express the things you want to say? Do you just not worry about it and let life take you where it will? Do you lock it up inside to never be heard? I understand that letting it out someway or another will make you feel better but when you have so much to say, what do you do? How? When? Where? When your mind starts racing a thousand different directions and all you can do is stand there? You feel like your being pulled apart and you don't know which way to run? Will yelling help? Do you think you could cover it up with another though? When you are completely and utterly speechless? Your world feels empty and boring? Its decaying from within you? Why you? Why me? Why now? Why this?

When this happens to me, I know God and I are going to have a very long talk. About what you say? Everything. Nothing will be left out. Every corner swept clean and every muddy spot washed away. Most of the time this happens almost everyday. So many questions and I can't even begin to make sense of them all. But...what do I know...I'm just at a loss for words.